Happy Friday, Everyone!
This has been a hard week, and because of that, I thought I would post something a little different. I’m coming out on the other side of the chaos, and I wanted to take this time to reflect, refocus, and get back on a productive track.
But first, context:
Like I said above, it’s been a hard week. My daughter had a high fever for the first half of the week that later developed into Roseola, a scary looking full body rash.
She is normally a very happy baby, and it was so sad to watch her still try to have fun and play, while remembering that she didn’t feel good and start crying all of sudden. It broke my heart.
On top of that, she had a very hard time sleeping. For about four days she couldn’t sleep for more than 2.5 hours at a time, and I began to have flashbacks to her first few weeks in this world.
Shifting Priorities & Messy Action
Early on in the week, I made peace that priorities were going to shift and certain goals would have to be placed on hold.
I had just started migrating this blog from a preset type site to a more customizable WordPress powered site. (Which, by the way, I am still learning and embracing the messy action of publishing something as it’s developing!)
I was setting my to-do list for the week when my daughter woke up screaming around 10pm Saturday night, and since then, it’s been all about her and her health.
I knew I still wanted to get the website done, but I decided it would have to be a basic migration, and I would give myself more time later to build it out exactly how I want it to be.
I also resigned myself to the fact that I might not get a post out this week, or at least a content driven post. I was so exhausted that when I finally did get her to sleep on her own, all I wanted to do was either pass out myself, or snack and continue binging Black-ish on Hulu.
Thankfully, we got a whole 5 hours of sleep last night and I woke up while she was still sleeping.
A New Day & New Lessons
I brushed my teeth, washed my face, and even moisturized!
I felt more recharged and better able to focus. And I am so, so happy that my baby got a somewhat good night’s sleep!
I realized I learned a lot this week.
I learned how much exercise really is important to my psychological well being, and I hope to be able to jump back into it tonight after I put my daughter down for (fingers crossed!) a full and restful night’s sleep.
I learned that even if I’m not actively producing anything, keeping it at the forefront of my mind enables me to be open to receiving any brainstorms when I’m least expecting them.
I learned that I can still rock my baby back to sleep while staying present on a call or finishing up some self-study.
I also learned that sometimes I have to abruptly stop what I’m doing to focus on her, and everything will still work out.
Most importantly, I learned that the hard times will end eventually and when they do, I will wash my face, put on some eye cream, and pick back up where I left off.
The Importance of Knowing Your Why
I used to let getting derailed completely obliterate any progress I had, but I also have never had as clear a vision or set of goals to help reorient myself. Because I know what my purpose is, I am less likely to let the unexpected upend my drive.
This week taught me that as long as I have my goals set in a clear and structured way, a little skin rash and sleeplessness will not override any bigger plans.
Thankfully my daughter is on her way to being 100% back to her normal happy and healthy self, and we will continue to succeed—Her at picking up objects and putting them in containers, and me at staying focused on the goals for building our future.
I also can’t ignore the importance of the namesake of this blog.
Because I have learned to give myself permission to fail, unexpected events no longer defeat me.
It’s ok if I didn’t get done what I thought I was going to. It’s ok if I had to completely rework the steps to get there. It’s ok if I had to scrap something altogether.
Because failure is ok.
And picking right up from the failure and continuing on a better fortified road to success is even better. The ultimate lesson I am still learning: Everything will work out, as long as we give ourselves the space to figure it out.
How was your week? What unexpected events popped up that might have forced you to adjust your plans? Were you able to jump back in and refocus when things were clearing up? What do you think will help you be able to have a better handle on managing the chaos when it comes?